Monologues (1)

Most times

They say I control myself

Women believe that once I wake up from slumber

I can hardly think straight

I stay awake till I get what quenches my thirst

It is even believed

I'm moved by what I see

Although I believe it's more of a myth than reality

I still believe I have a mind of my own

Which makes it difficult for my 'owner' to control sometimes

There are times I wonder why I wield so much power

But I'm at peace because I know Heaven brought me to fore for a purpose

Yes! I was definitely part of the creation story or ...

Created for a particular reason

I know certain women purposely provoke me with their dressing

They have woken me up from slumber in public places

They have made my 'owner' send messages to me from the brain

I try to resist most times especially when I had been warned earlier

Somehow, it's just so difficult for me to resist a challenge

I have been put to test so many times

I really wonder what state I would be now if ...

There could be more depending on the reactions I get from this. It's sort of interesting to be able to view things and issues from another perspective. I can't wait to read comments!

I'M Lonely!

The last few days have been hectic for me not necessarily because of school work but because everything is beginning to look so bleak. One of the reasons I think things seem to be going this way is either because I'm homesick or because I'm missing someone so special to me. It gets difficult more and more everyday. This feeling is gradually driving me crazy .....!

The annoying part of all these is the fact that different thoughts are beginning to come to mind on how exactly I can kill some part of the loneliness. I already got into trouble once(woman-wise) and I'm honestly trying to run away from trouble this time.

Guess this is the only place I can push out my feelings and feel a little better.

Do I need help?

D' Banj & 9ice Videos

A quick one ....!

Both D'banj and 9ice came out with new videos this week and I have continually watched the videos over and over to pick my best. My hobby of trying to pick the flaws of naija musical videos just won't let me rest. I must confess I'm a great fan of naija hip-hop music(at least the ones that make sense) but I only try to turn on my critical side for videos where we have the least display of boobs and not too much sexual content.

As per D'banj's video (Fall in Love) despite the general acceptance of the video just because he kissed Mrs D'banj( ah ... dem never marry nw), I absolutely feel there's still something missing in the video. My first critic of the video stems from the opening scene where D'banj's first few words after coming out of the shower were in 'broken' English ... haba! It just made him look so 'razz' beside Genevieve. I also wonder when naija artistes will learn to come up with a video almost immediately after a song is released because doing a video almost immediately with the song gives it a better hype than doing the video a year later. They should learn from Olu Maintain's 'Yahooze' video and 9ice's 'Gongo- Aso'. The videos never lived up to expectation because they came out almost a year after the songs were released. If they had been released almost simultaneously with the songs, they would have been generally accepted or too much flaws with the videos wouldn't have been seen.

9ice's 'No be Mistake' video seems to be rocking my heart. Though it had some element of 'copycat' from other videos at the beginning, it pulled the strings after that till the end. The photographer character added something different to the usual party scenes we are already used to in naija videos. Big ups to 9ice for doing this video not too far from when the song was released. I'm sure he learnt a big lesson from the 'Gongo -Aso' video.

'No be Mistake' say I don turn Naija musical video critic.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EL5jRXT-ZhA&NR=1

My Thoughts ....

I'm definitely getting tired of young Nigerians trying to put the blame of everything on government. Fine, we all know that our government have been hopeless over the years but the fact remains that every of us has contributed to making Nigeria have the same kind of re-cycled leaders. Since I was born in the early 80s, Nigeria has gone from bad to worse. We haven't had a leader that has done anything spectacular in making things better for the country. All we have had so far are just politicians who take joy in killing each other and enriching their pockets. With all these, I still believe Nigeria isn't a failed state yet.

Presently, the young generation has started speaking out with one voice against bad governance but it seems and obvious that the marches to Aso Rock and other places will never be enough. The politicians already know who will be the next President of our great country. I'm sure they even have the next political landscape agenda for Nigeria in the next 20 years figured out. Even if we youths cry out and march till tomorrow, it may never amount to giving us good leaders.

This has been raging inside my head as a solution ... it may sound stupid but I think it makes a lot of sense. The young generation should start a political party and give proper opposition to the political parties. Let people like Fela Durotoye and other notable names in his category be put forward as the presidential candidates, even if he doesn't win, to a large extent the old politicians will know that the young generation means business!

The marches will never be enough because that won't change anything!

..... just wondering - why can't I ever leave my thoughts in my head?!

'Welcome to Lagos' - My take!

I must confess that I was bitter and still a little bit bitter when the 'Welcome to Lagos' documentary on BBC2 preview came up on my TV screen. The first question I asked and I believe all Nigerians should ask is -'who gave the BBC crew visa to enter the country and shoot the documentary?'. I'm so sure the BBC would have requested for visas to enter the country and would also have brought in their equipment and gadgets for the shoot/documentary, so questions should have been asked by the Nigeria officials about their mission and what exactly they had come to Nigeria to do. This absolutely calls for concern because the UK Border officials would never have allowed NTA to come and shoot the 'slum-side' of the UK. If they won't allow us to do this in their country, why should we allow them to come over to Nigeria and show our bad side to the whole world? BBC should run documentaries on successful people in Nigeria too instead of going about looking for 'Naija' dump-sites!

The beauty of the documentary stems for the fact that the characters of the documentary played a prominent role through their narration even though their was still a voice-over. I felt proud to be a Nigerian because despite the fact that the government would never provide for its citizens, we will do anything(the right-way) to carve a niche for ourselves even if it means making a living out of a dump- site!

Special thanks to BBC for making the whole world realise that Nigerians would always notice a gap in any business through which profit can be made.

NTA and other TV stations in Nigeria should take a cue from this on how proper documentaries can done instead of making documentaries that normally lures one to sleep(NTA please take note!)

N.B: Had to do this post in a rush, I've got loads of essays to write and I just had to put this up before it flies away from my head. Please, bear with me if this post is full of errors because I won't be proof-reading!

Something About You ....!

For the special one I wake up thinking about every morning!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kyoPgWJrfIo

Great song, simple video but really cool. I can't stop myself playing this song all over in my head.

The Women in my Life

This post has probably been inspired by the fact that I got tired of seeing all those horror pictures people have been putting on FB and really wanted to get my mind off them.

..... the women in my life!

I don't see myself as a 'womaniser' but people have told me more than once that I have the eyes of one. I believe people are just funny with this assumption because the people that have said this have never seen me talking to a woman or 'toasting'(did I ever toast the ones I went out with?) one. Before you start thinking or having the wrong ideas, I have only one woman in my life right and she's definitely going to be the last and only woman in my life.

The first woman was in secondary school. I was definitely too young for a relationship so it was really easy to let go.

The second was in-between after secondary and university. We somehow never went out but we remained good friends.Several years later, she claims she was really dying for me but I never had the 'liver' to ask her out.

Third was in the university. I remember vividly seeing her for the first time in LIN 121 class. I practically chased her for a year before things went down between us. Somehow along the heart, she broke my heart. 2010- She says I never totally forgave her and wonder what it will be like right now if we were still together. My cousin and roommate for three years believes till today I never got over her.

Fourth, still in the university. We both knew from the beginning it was a risky venture but we still went ahead. A lot of people felt we were from two different worlds. Two years later, one of us had to be strong, I broke her heart for the benefit of both of us.

2007, I made my final choice!

.... the problem is, I still relate with these other women very well but sometimes I really wish I don't ... to avoid trouble for all of us.

Is it really safe putting up this post?