Can I ....?????

Can I really leave????

I have been asking myself that question for the past few weeks since I put up my last post. My heart has been pounding with words that need to be put down in writing. I'm going absolutely nuts right now and blogging about my issues right might probably help because I have been having this funny idea of jumping into the river I pass through to work almost everyday.

I know I have made some terrible mistakes in my life. I know I have let a lot of people down especially someone. Is it exactly my fault? The person in question is never there to stop me from making these terrible mistakes when I'm about to make them but castigates me like hell when the deed is done. I feel like giving it all up now but a friend has 'hammered' it into my head that if I do anything stupid, life continues as usual for ..... and I may even be labelled as stupid if I do exactly what is on my mind.

For now, I'm also contemplating alcohol is a way out of this trying times but will it really help? I don't really know but the bottom-line is I'm freaking tired of all the bullshit going on in my lfe right now!

Do I feel better now? I think so since I have let it out a bit. This may be part of the recovery process!

I know this looks entirely stupid but I'm not editing jo!

Finally!!!!!!!!!!!!!

The time has finally come

I no longer feel safe here

I can no longer put my thoughts down here

I know I have stalkers following my every blog move

But

Can I really leave blogville?

I probably need a rebirth

Or a more quiet place

Where my thoughts can be let out in writing without any fears!!!!!!!!!!!

I may still be lurking around in a different form .......

For now

I bid this blog a final goodbye!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Winter Dialogue!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

musco: O boy this winter dey hammer body o!

'kini':Before nko?

musco: Wetin we go do to survive am?

'kini: U dey craze?no be you dey control me?

musco:Control you?!All the times you have put me into trouble nko? I have said it times without number that you absolutely have a mind of your own and you always tend yo use that against me.

'kini': LOL!!!!!!!!

musco:Sounds funny right? God dey o

'kini':lol.... whatever you say, I still keep warm down here somehow

musco: So how come you make me toss and turn on my bed each time I wake up in this terrible cold?

'kini': You already have a mindset that you can use me to keep warm especially with my twin(Do I even have a twin?)

musco: Can't I just have a decent conversation with you????? This winter is killing and as it is, you are the only one I can talk to!

'kini': You are talking to the wrong 'thing'!

The winter is here again and it seems I can't cope with the cold anymore. Last year, I was able to cope probably because I have had years of Nigerian sun burnt into my body but it seems the cold has taken it all out now. Obviously, the cold has made me started acting weird and that's why I had to engage in a conversation with 'kini'. My past posts on 'Monologues' should help to understand the 'kini' concept better.

I hope nobody crucifies me this time. Na winter cause am ...lol!

Nice to be back on blogsville.

I also stumbled on this new blog. It looks and sounds down to earth to me. Do check her out ......http://adeesco-myworld.blogspot.com/